At least that is how I am feeling lately. I am almost 40 and what do I have to show for it? I am not looking for pity, and I am not feeling sorry for myself, I just can't see much ahead.
Let me rephrase that, one of the most beautiful things that has ever happened in my life happened late last year, and continues to be something real and exciting in my life, but I can't seem to be able to do anything about it, no matter how hard I try. I am restricted, and unable to contribute.
So I am looking for some light, any light to help me out of this low. If someone ever asked me if I have been depressed before I would have to say no, because until now I had no idea what it really meant.
I have no answers, at least at this point, I thought I had a future, but right now it doesn't look all that bright. Maybe I have to take off the shades?
Any way, I have shared a lot of experiences in the last few years with those who read this, why not let them in on the truth, maybe I am just a loser.
Posted by Muckhead at March 18, 2004 10:23 PMEven though I only worked with you a relatively short time, I can tell you're no loser. It sounds li,e to me, you've just got yourself into a mental rut.
It sounds to me like you just need a reboot. I'd suggest taking a day, soon, and just going to one of the trails up the road from you. Let Sharon know where you're going obviously, and just get out into the wilderness by yourself for a bit, away from the daily grind and away from technology.
Posted by: Darren at March 19, 2004 01:15 PMMental reboot good. I need one of those soon.
Posted by: Arcterex at March 22, 2004 02:26 PM